this is for my aunt Jen
The last blog (which shut down because I never updated) left off with us having the three boys and pregnant with #4 - a baby girl!
Miss McKenna Mariska arrived on May 18th weighing in at 9lbs 15oz - bigger than any of her brothers at birth! So much for the dainty little girl - ha! Her brothers love her to pieces and you can tell the feeling is mutual. She has definitely made our family complete.
Fast forward to 11.11.11 - supposedly a lucky day that turned out to be not so lucky for us. Barrett took me to the ER with what we thought would be kidney stones but turned out to be a diagnosis of breast cancer that spread to my liver and some of my bones. The moment that my doctor said those words are forever burned in my mind. I remember Barrett and I just staring at each other in total shock and disbelief. I kept waiting for the doctor to apologize and say that he was in the wrong room but that didn't happen.
The drive home was the longest of my life. The words "I am going to die" kept running through my head. We were both terrified. Neither of us knew what to say or what to do next.
What we did next was go home, hug our kids, take a deep breath and go to bed.
That weekend was full of tears - a lot of tears. How would I be able to say goodbye to my husband and four babies. Would they be ok? Would they even remember me?
We went to work on Monday and got a call that there was an opening at the Oncologist. Barrett went with me - we had so many questions we didn't know where to begin. Thankfully the Oncologist was patient and walked us through the next few steps that we would need to take.
Here is a brief synopsis:
11.14.11 first appt w/ oncologist
11.17.11 needle biopsy w/ breast surgeon
11.22.11 call from doctor with the offical confirmation of breast cancer diagnosis
11.23.11 pet scan
11.28.11 surgery to place medi-port in my chest
12.02.11 first round of chemo
12.03.11 doctor puts me in hospital due to a high fever - lots of blood work, chest x-ray, and CT scan to try and figure out why
12.04.11 another night in the hospital -
continued on perivous memoir about jen