Recently my "brother" has been teaching me to defend myself and ground fight. For as long as I can remember I've wanted to be able to defend myself, to fight, to be a winner. Also, as long as I can remember, I've had a loser's mentality. The fear of trying hard enough to succeed by the assumption of losing, consumes me. This loser's mentality follows me everywhere, in the classroom, in debates, even a friendly difference in opinion. By learning to fight, I will confront the emotions that restrain me. May my emotions dissolve to leave only ability and strength!