It's not that I didn't trust her, I was just getting frustrated.
I think today may have been the first time that she saw me late at night and so distressed. (Not to mention that I hadn't talked to her in 2 months).
Although I didn't calm down until a bit after I had left her office I think that she both saved me from what could have been disastrous tonight and gave me things to think about for the times ahead, which my current therapist can't quite do yet because I still haven't known her very long.
I don't really know what changed today, but I'm quite thankful for it. She knew that I was distressed in that moment but doing pretty well overall without me having to justify myself. It was a comforting change.