A long time friendship unexpectedly turned romantic, turned uncomfortable, and then turned quickly over. My friend said he thinks my previous relationships are keeping me from finding happiness... but I think I HAVE happiness as a single person with my three children, a successful career, a group of incredible friends, and a lovely neighborhood.
So I think he's wrong, and that he's just trying to convince me -- like most of society -- that I should want to date, to be in relationships, to find romance.
But maybe he's right: in the days leading up to the end, I couldn't sleep. And in the days following, all I dream about is Olivia's dad who left. Those dreams could be connected to Father's Day... or they could be connected to dating and why I don't.
I'm thinking maybe I need to go back to therapy to sort it out... and then I wonder why. Because I'm happy. Do I need answers? Will I actually get answers? Unlikely. Will that actually make me happier? Doubtful.
Maybe I just need to spend less time worrying about what is or is not happening in bed, and just focus on today.