Two tours in Vietnam; I got out of the army in 1973. It was downhill from there. About 1996, a friend steered me to the VA. In 2000, I was designated 100% disabled with PTSD. I received eight years of therapy. The VA saved me from chronic depression and destitution. I was about to become homeless. I once dreamed I was dead in Vietnam, lying on my back, seeing the sky, and it felt wonderful. It was OK. Being a live veteran was not OK.