Like a boulder, I stood motionlessly as the river's waters rushed around me. Instead of allowing myself to go with the currents, I stood in selfish defiance.
You see, it's never been easy for me to accept change. Especially when that change involves someone I love.
The girl I dated changed over time, whereas I didn't. She began to grow in worldliness and became less dependent on the love and affection that a relationship involves. I, however, continued to bring out the kisses and dish out the hugs. For whatever reason, she didn't want them as much anymore.
But I continued. She told me, several times, that it was borderline suffocating. Alas, I was so determined to try and get her to return to her old ways that I ended up doing more harm than good. She wasn't the person she was a few years ago, and I kept trying to bring that person back instead of accepting her for who she had become.
My selfishness and my inability to accept and deal with change caused me to hurt the object of my desires deeply. I made the poor creature hate herself. I choked out the spark that bound us to each other, and I'll go to the grave regretting it.
I just hope, that maybe someday, she'll forgive me. I've learned my lesson.