Billy Crystal's one man show. If you haven't seen it, you should. He's brilliant. He sums up the loss of his father with words I couldn't find. "The otherness".... how the loss puts you in a place where you're neither here nor there. You carry a boulder with you everywhere. He lost his dad when he was 15. I lost mine when I was 49. I felt guilty. I had so much more time than he did. Then he talked about losing his mom when he was 53, and how you go through the same otherness and you carry the same boulder. He described himself as an orphan. At 53. And his connection to the earth was suddenly different. My dad's death came in the same years as Mom's Alzheimer's diagnosis. I understand the orphan connection. I understand the connection difference. He made me laugh, cry and understand. I've loved Billy Crystal forever, but I love him even more now.